Really struggling

I've been meaning to post here for, well 10 months. I've just really found it difficult to process the whole 'loosing my daughter" issue. I thought I was ok with it and find out now that I am not. This has been a really tough struggle. And I know that it is easier to ignore something than it is to deal withit. But in the long run I must deal with it, or I can't move on. So we'll see what I can do to soldier on through this over the next couple of days. Oh please God give me strength!